It is the ones you like the most that you let go of...let them have it their way...bow out...and then, when your heart lights up with the memory of it, way into the years, you smile. Maybe you didn't do the right thing. Maybe you should have held on, displayed your stubborn-ness, the same stuborn-ness that disappears in the presence of a few. But no...if it wasn't the right thing to do, you wouldn't be smiling about it now. And ofcourse, there's always happiness in seeing them happy. Happier, perhaps. That, is the curious way in which the happiness inside the distorted head works. Quite marvellous sometimes. Painful sometimes. Giving some part of the mind a new lease on joy. Depriving another of the same. Laughing, but not really. Bitter-sweet. A battle you won, by losing. Where the victory exists, but not in your head. Loss or Gain? You know it for sure...but you secretly wish for an assymetrical slant towards the 'gain'. Maybe...
You let them go, you let them free, you make them happy, you're happy. Maybe thats selfish after all. There's something for everyone in everything that happens. Fringe benefits, or maybe, not.
Yours 'realisations of sorts' ly
Signing off...
10 comments:
That is being too positive , is it not ? Are u sure the smile that comes across is not out of helplessness ?
But ya .. have to agree that it is better to "let go" than to hold on to it desperately ...
Meloncholic post eh ? :)
vinod - melancholic indeed :) And, everything's the way you take it. I wouldn't want to chose the word 'helplessness' as a reason for that smile... maybe i'm being positive because it helps me deal with reality better ;) But only in this case. Usually, pessimism helps one handle reality better! Anyway... when i started typing the post, i din know it wud turn out this way! But am happy i updated!
Deep, Divs, deep !!
Nik - ooo, how long has it been since u visited here!! :) welcome back! And yeah, the deepest posts happen hours before the yuckiest exam! anyway, it was one sort of vague...
great post:) can relate so much to it.. keep up the good work:)
srivalli - welcome aboard :) Thankyou. Keep reading! though i've stopped updating regularly...
Life-truths :|
1.Every action, no matter who does it, no matter what motives they claim, is selfish.
2. You never 'let go'. By accepting something/someone into your life, you have woven them into your net, and even if the presence is absent, the thing/person never is.
3. Happiness is a state of existence. People do not confer it upon you...you take it from the depths of your ocean and let it float on your boat. If you decide to make the bitter sweet, I can only smile when I wonder how sweet the bitter was, and how sweet the sweet will be!!!
My two paise.
PS: I can relate to some of your posts really well. Beautiful!
suchitra - Thankyou, for sharing that :) Really admire that (i cant believe am usin this word so much with you) clarity! :)
1 - True true
2 - Right. Maybe am talking about 'let go'ing of the presence...we definitely cant erase people out of our minds...
3 - Abt happiness, even if its something you have to bring out from within you, i believe everything has a stimulus. Something has to make me bring it out. Ofcourse the choice is mine, but i do it instantaneously, and willingly when a few things provoke it... :) And, the bitter is never sweet...the bitter is bitter, and the sweet is sweet, and the combination, believe me, is quite weird!
Lastly, thankyou. A 'beautiful' coming from a writer like you is indeed big! :)
Divs!!! And there goes another brilliant yet succint post! How do you do it? You're giving me a complex! Now I am sorely tempted to a)delete my blog; b)delete the post I just wrote!!!
P.s. I changed the URL for my blog... it's now epiphanicinterlude.blogspot.com
nanya - thankyou, and pleez! Id theres anyone who should be deleting a post, it should be me! They're getting worse... anyway, your new url is very easy to remember! :P Couldn u make it any more complicated? ;)
But, the url is definitely more 'you' than boguscrap was!
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