Saturday, August 30, 2008

Grey

I just visited a few blogs i usually read, and realised they're not updated either! So i guess we're back to that phase in blog land where people are just too busy, or too bored, to update. I don't have anything in particular either, as always! But hell, dead blogs aren't nice :(

Nothing seems significant enough to go up on the blog! I know i shouldn't be saying this, because my blog title boasts of acknowledging insignificance! I don't know why I don't feel like writing about this beautiful, huge campus, the lovely walks, the river, the fireworks, the swipe cards, or Brisbane as such! Nothing seems to impress! Its not a nice feeling, when nothing is good enough to take your breath away... Its like, your 'expectation meter' suddenly shot up sky high! Maybe there will come a time when excitement will dawn upon this being, and my dark eye will notice the brighter side of things. I'll wait for that day! I swear, if any of you visit me sometime now, I'd be the happiest person on earth ;) and i'd do anything for u! Lol...

Its pretty amazing to realise the value of good company... there were a bunch of people who were always around, who understood every goddam thing you said, and enjoyed the same things you did... and suddenly, the rivers and the blue skies aren't lovely anymore because the people are missing. And even music can't work its charm on you and make your eyes appreciate beauty. A lovely star-lit night with a light breeze and the perfect music playing in your ears, doesn't bring tears to your eyes. You're in constant search of something, that is most likely, non-existent in the near future. You smile so much at strangers, not so much at non-strangers. You see the most beautiful sunset from the 6th level of an amazing building, an empty level with fluorescent green floors, and you're rooted to the spot for a moment... staring at the incredibly straight rays that emanate from a bush of light in all its yellow-ness...and you want that scene to play before your eyes everyday. Will that happen?

So is this all about belonging?

Yours" Well, it does feel pretty cool to swipe cards to enter buildings!"ly
signing off...

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh my! Why the melancholy and all the sadness.. I suppose this is one of those infinite ways of moving on in life.

Div said...

sementi - Nice to see you here! Yes, i'm sure it is! even if it wasnt one of the infinite ways of moving on, now it has become one! And by the looks of it, its not very pleasant :)

Vinod Ramamoorthy said...

Nothing impresses indeed ... Living in a place where you dont have good company can b a torture.. Ask me !!

U will learn to live .. I guess

Anonymous said...

it's like this- everytime someone goes away somewhere you go to a different place, you've lost a part of something there. but you will find it somewhere else, probably not in the same proportion. you will definitely, belong or find someone to fell like you do, probably everyplace you go. it's just the proportion that varies..

Div said...

Vinod - I dont want to learn to live like this! I WANT good company!

Suk - Why have i read something similar somewhere? But if u made that up yourself, *bows*. U know you rock, dont u? :)

Anonymous said...

:D thanks. i did make it up. but if you do remember where you've read it, do tell me

Anonymous said...

heyyy bewdi....so am finally commenting like after ages na....i do check ur blog once in a while...sumtimes i jus hav time 2 read d posts n dnt hav time 2 comment n stuff...but 2day i thot i shud defi comment...i mean i cud like completly relate 2 ur post man...frm d very beginning 2 d end...if ders sum1 who can undrstd each wrd of wot u xpressd in d post...its me cos am goin thru d same phase man ;(

Anonymous said...

I mean d campus is jus as i wud hav dreamt it 2 be...beutfl n d whole city...d fireworks ur rite..n all dose high funda swiping at metros n buildings...but life has dis big vacuum...ur rite gud co. means d world ....i mean even in jeppr..sottha campus...but how much fun we had der na..dunno wer life's takn us...rite now defi not njoying dis phase...but lets hope ders brightness at d end of dis reely long tunnel...n hope we do find gud co.reely soon...n yup as u said if ny1 frm India cums over ...nuthn like dat man ;) also i do remembr ur plan of droppn in here sumtime..so dnt 4get dat :)

Div said...

sand - !!! Totally! I know we're going through the same phase... it sucks! But it shud be getting better... and i haven't forgotten that i said i'd drop in! (yeah, like u live in the next street or something!! lol). I will. :)